I do not promote any EDs or self harm,
this blog is only to help me
SW:121 lbs || CW: 114.6 ||UGW: 99 lbs
119❌|116❌||114❌|112❌
GW1: 110 ||GW2: 105 ||GW3:100
The photos are not me unless I specifically say so on it
Me: *Is depressed* *has no self esteem* *has an unhealthy obsession with perfection*
Me: Hey you know what I can totally lose weight the healthy way!
Also me: * develops another mental illness* *makes being skinny the goal and reason to live* *obsesses over being skinny* *thinks I cant be happy without being skinny* *thinks my life will become better asap when skinny*
All my other mental illnesses: Hey good to get to know you *shaking hands with ED*
Me: :)
“YOU ARE NOT SKINNY AND YOU ARE NOT FAT. YOU’RE FINE, IN THE HEALTHY RANGE”
“You are not skinny”
“you are not skinny”
This is killing me.
This really hit me
I feel you
Does anyone else ever feel like they aren’t skinny enough to run a thinspo blog? Or does anyone else feel hypocritical about running one when they have binged? Orrrrr is that just me….
all the time. just remember lovelies that there is no righty or wrong way to be have an eating disorder. don’t feel guilty if you don’t fit the typical look!
always
→you’ll have a waist instead of fat rolls
→you’ll fit into your skinny clothes
→you won’t be ashamed of what the scale shows
→you can be confident around other people
→cuter clothes!!!
→you’ll never cry out of frustration that “you’re too fat to wear that” because you won’t be too fat
→getting to be the skinny friend
→cute bathing suits!! TWO PIECES!!!
→getting to look in the mirror without hating yourself
→food will never rule you again. You’ve overcome the temptation and proved you’re better than that. I want to be skinny more than I want to eat.
Does anyone else ever feel like they aren’t skinny enough to run a thinspo blog? Or does anyone else feel hypocritical about running one when they have binged? Orrrrr is that just me….
all the time. just remember lovelies that there is no righty or wrong way to be have an eating disorder. don’t feel guilty if you don’t fit the typical look!
always
Ok. Time to start over. Summer is almost here. You’ve wished and promised yourself so many times that you’d be 90 pounds by the end of the month. But look at yourself. You’ve done nothing but gained. Probably put on 15 pounds by now. Disgusting. What is wrong with you? You want to be skinny, and yet you let yourself binge EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT. I don’t care if it’s “healthy food.” It can be a goddamn blueberry for all I care. When it comes to being skinny, NO food is healthy or good. It’s fat. A giant bloated stomach. Jiggling curvy thighs. A revolting butt and legs covered in cottage cheese cellulite. Calves that hang down when you put your feet up on anything. Love handles and exaggerated hip dips. Blobby boobs and underarm fat. Bat wings and double chins. No cheekbones, ribs, bony chest, tiny wrists, skeletal hands, hipbones, bony legs, knobby knees- NOTHING. You have NONE of those things. You are fat, overweight, disproportioned- GOD you are just plain UGLY. Understand this. DO NOT EAT UNLESS SOMEONE LITERALLY MAKES YOU. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO EAT IF YOU’RE ALONE, BORED, TIRED ETC. IT DOESN’’T MATTER, JUST KEEP GOING! Drink coffee or tea, distract yourself in some way, ANY way, just please don’t fucking eat again. Let all that disgusting fat burn away. Your body can sustain itself for a long time without food. You will feel BETTER. HAPPIER. MORE CONFIDENT. MORE BEAUTIFUL. IN CONTROL. If you don’t eat that piece of bread. That apple. That banana. That pastry. Just don’t do it. You know you will hate yourself afterwards. Here, let’s play a game. Let’s see how long you can last without eating. It will be a test of endurance and strength and mind power. You can do this. You WILL be bony and skinny and thin and petite. I can see it. You just need to have the power to say NO.
Raise your hand if your body type and metabolism mean you will never be able to eat whatever you want and be your ideal weight at the same time
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it’s fucking sad the amount of notes on this. Like, if we were meant to be skinny, or at least thin, like our healthy state, why do we crave what hurts us? In general, why do human beings want what’s bad for them? Hella inconvenient to say the least.
You dont realise how fat you are until you see yourself in pictures…
It went from “I want to get fit and toned,” to “I want to be thin,” to “I want to be so skinny that my bones stick out and people wonder if I ever eat.”
Same
Until my boyfriend actually worries about me instead of encourages me,
Until my friends and family notice just how much weight I’ve really lost,
Until none of my clothes fit and I’m forced to buy a whole new wardrobe,
Until my stomach is flat, my waist tiny, my fingers dainty,
Until I’m someone’s thinspo or body goals,
Until they say “You’re so skinny!” instead of “You’re not fat”,
Until they ask, “What’s your secret?”
Until they ask, “Do you even eat?”
Until I’m dead.
